2025

The year of the father.

Spent the first few days of the year making NFL player highlight edits. Building my son’s room. New car for wife. No longer losing weight at 1lb/day when I choose (more like .5lb now), I must be getting old. Music -> Web dev -> Writing -> Finance at absolute top speed. Watching more movies than most people (Waterworld goated). My wife will have our baby within three weeks. The year of the father is upon us.

Thinking about:

- Orthodoxy

- Career implications as the AI future starts to take form (deepseek aaaahhhh)

- Crypto (always <3)

- JFK

- Kubrick

- Elon’s motivations

- Non-slop activities for kids (NSAK)

- Technocracy

“I think I’ll do it all”

I know what you’re thinking…

First try: 69% (one short)

Second try: 69%

Third try using Achievable:  😏

This year (2024) I have:

-Passed SIE

-Learned to code

-Made an(some) app(s)

-Made too many websites

-Worked as a freelance PR writer

-Passed my SIE

-Got married

-Impregnated wife

-Read a ton

-Wrote a ton

-Paid off my car (Net worth 📈)

-Paid down credit cards

Mr. Cool Guy PFPKS (Professional Football-Playing King in Space)

ProverbsAI.com

Updates to ihaveaproblem.xyz

The branding of this app was bothering me so I changed it from ihaveaproblem(.)xyz to ProverbsAI.com, and added a few new features.

CHANGE LOG

-New Domain (ProverbsAI.com)

-Links to supplied verses in various versions of the Bible (NABRE, KJV, NIV, Etc.)

-Various visual tweaks

P.S. I am procrastinating on my MIDI app - I promise I’ll get back to it.

And this… is to go even further beyond!!

It is going to work out

Learning to program has been quite challenging, but is now becoming super fulfilling. I am not there yet, (and by some standards, may never be) but I have finally hit a stride where I am able to sit at my desk and simply do things.

I am currently working on an app that ties my music/engineering background into my programming endeavor.

This app is a web-based MIDI editor and enhancer. It allows users to upload, visualize, edit, and enhance MIDI files. The key features include:

1. MIDI file upload and parsing
2. Visual piano roll representation of MIDI data
3. Playback functionality
4. Basic MIDI editing capabilities (add, move, delete notes)
5. AI-powered melody enhancement using Magenta.js
6. Harmony addition and melody extension features
7. Responsive design for various screen sizes

This is a much more complex project than I have done yet, but I cannot wait for the results. Roughest draft:

It is able to load all of Country Roads in the (laggy) HTML5 canvas - that has to count for something, right?

Ihaveaproblem.xyz

NEW AI Webapp

I’ve created an app powered by Claude that helps one solve their problems using wisdom from the Bible. This app takes your problem (prompt) and searches the Bible and Catholic teachings to recommend jumping-off points for reading scripture. This app does not alter Biblical texts, and simply recommends passages. This is, of course, inspired by TempleOS (RIP Terry).

Visit ihaveaproblem.xyz to try it now!

Diagram of the architecture below.

Useless or Use Less?

I’ll find a reason to use this - and so will YOU :o

I awoke in a sweat after a premonition that revealed to me that I should make a text editor immediately for no reason. I’m at the point in my coding journey where I am just trying to make every (basic) thing just because. Would be cool if I could use this for a comment section. Better yet, somehow replace google docs in my workflow and make my own text editor w/ api to keep the same process but all proprietary.

EDIT

Python is slop and i hate it so i won’t use it. Download or load your txt files from your phone or desktop using only JS. This is an act of resistance. I’m going to build this out with node if i ever want a backend.

Try it here

New Article on Substack

Putting long-form writing out there

Click here to read

Not knowing never stopped me before

Python can’t be that tough

Trying very hard to create a web app hosted with Vercel that will convert uploaded images to ASCII. I do not know how to do any of this, but still made a lot of progress today (and this was the second project today, give me a break). Ideally, I want to create an API to communicate with a page on my website. (If any Python devs see this, please teach me something)

There is some kind of logic error in the script that I do not have the energy to resolve today. I would finish this tomorrow, but tomorrow is the sabbath. So I will finish it and report back on Monday.

**EDIT**

It’s Sunday and I realized that this is not work when I am having so much fun. I made a bit more progress:

- Frontend online(!)

- Rewrote entire script (with Claude’s assistance)

- Implemented 3MB file upload size in script; Vercel has a max of 5MB total per request, so I’ve allocated 2MB of that for the function with a buffer zone

- CSS styling (lol)

- File hierarchy overhaul

- Found new issue to address tomorrow

Flappy Guy v1.1 Update

Big things are happening with my very original, long-awaited mobile/browser game.

Updates:

Further Mobile Optimization

- Window and game components adjusts to screen size

- Double-click zoom disabled

Visual Updates

- Boxes are now green like grass or the leaves of a tree

- Background is blue just like our sky

- Consulted legal team

- Double checked; zero S*per Mar*o references

- Game Over and game restart updated

- Added  new font

Better Collision

- fixed bug where visual box is out of sync with game

Cool New Flappy Guy

- Character updated to a cool guy

- Better jump physics for this cool flapping guy

Play Flappy Guy v1.1 Here

The Modern Renaissance Man

Special eyes, specialize, special lies

Specialization has long been considered essential for human progress, with society relying on experts in various fields to advance knowledge. However, the past 15 years have witnessed a significant shift in this paradigm. The internet has democratized access to information, creating opportunities for multi-disciplinary expertise that were once limited to the privileged few.

While time remains a constraint, the digital age has made it possible for individuals to learn virtually anything, given sufficient dedication. This development blurs the lines in the specialist versus generalist debate, introducing nuances to our understanding of expertise.

Setting aside the internet's potential drawbacks, it has become a platform where one can encounter authorities from diverse fields in a single space. Social media platforms like X (formerly Twitter) have become particularly valuable for following thought leaders and industries that might otherwise seem inaccessible or irrelevant to one's primary focus.

A fascinating phenomenon has emerged from this accessibility: the ability to construct a comprehensive worldview based on insights from experts across multiple disciplines. By engaging with specialists in technology, politics, religion, history, philosophy, and other fields, one can gain a more holistic understanding of various industries and global issues.

This convergence of expert knowledge online creates a mutually beneficial ecosystem. Experts seeking to share their insights find an eager audience, while knowledge seekers gain access to a wealth of specialized information. This symbiotic relationship facilitates a broader, more interconnected approach to learning and understanding the complexities of our world.

What comes with opportunistic eras, is obligation and responsibility. How many say, “well, I would have [sold a startup during the dot com bubble] [bought Bitcoin in 2011], but I was only [not old enough] years old!”

Imagine what your descendents will say when they learn of this period and realize you were one of the unlucky (or uncommitted?) souls who could not save his bloodline from perpetual poverty. This is why we must learn, create and produce at rates we have not seen before. None of us will be the ones to create OpenAI (create Facebook), but there are many of us who can find success “building on buildings” (never forget that Zynga, creator of Farmville, was sold to Take-Two Interactive).

What I’m reading

And what’s next

I own a lot of books and often switch between physical books, e-books, and Audible to spend long hours reading.

Some of…

What I’m Reading:

- Behold A Pale Horse, William Cooper

- Out Of The Silent Planet, C.S. Lewis

- The Devil's Chessboard, David Talbot

- Eloquent JavaScript, Marijn Haverbeke

What I’ve Read:

- Sapiens, Yuval Noah Harari

- The Denial of Death, Ernest Becker

- Maps of Meaning, Jordan Peterson

- Brave New World, Aldous Huxley

What I Will Read:

- Moneyball, Michael Lewis

- East of Eden, John Steinbeck

- Inferno, Max Hastings

This list is for 2024, and is not complete.

How many of us?

The search for healthy skepticism

A guiding principle in my life is that "there is no bad information." I've always been drawn to fringe topics: UFOs, ghosts, conspiracies, alternative history, and the like. For me, these subjects scratch the same itch that science fiction might for others. Delving into these areas requires parallel research to maintain one's perspective and sanity.

Recently, it feels as if the instincts I've developed exploring these topics have become nearly essential for navigating society. The floodgates have opened, and conspiracy theories I encountered on niche internet forums a decade ago are now part of the public discourse.

This trend is concerning for many reasons. Often, people don't grasp the full implications of the talking points they engage with. The mainstream rise of antisemitism and QAnon theories is particularly alarming and irresponsible, regardless of one's viewpoint. As with most complex issues, many lack the context to fully understand what they're discussing – myself included.

Knowledge – or misinformation – can spread as rapidly and dangerously as a virus when scaled up. An idea can permeate any culture or location under the right circumstances. However, this phenomenon also presents an opportunity for observation and analysis.

I believe we're experiencing some form of disclosure or a significant paradigm shift. I make no value judgments on this, only observations. The source – be it a "deep state," political party, corporation, or divine entity – is less important than the information itself.

I'm not claiming there's necessarily truth in these theories (I couldn't possibly know). Rather, the value lies not in the surface-level content, but in the questions it raises:

Why am I encountering this information now? Who wants me to see it? Which aspects are crucial, and which might be misdirection? What are the historical and future implications? How widespread is this information? Do others have the same knowledge I do, or vice versa?

These questions can occupy one indefinitely, but engaging with them is crucial for those who can.

For those able to read between the lines – or willing to learn – the world is an open book right now. Someone wants you to see this. The challenge is to decide: Do you agree that you should see it? Will you accept it at face value or think critically about both the micro and macro implications? Are you capable of such critical thinking?

I believe I am, but I acknowledge that due to circumstances, resources, intelligence, or simple ignorance, I may never fully grasp what it truly means to think critically at the highest level.

What if up really is down, and we've been deceived? Then I've simply become adept at operating within a specific framework, not genuinely skilled at thinking. This applies to basic reading comprehension, but we currently live in an era of deception. Most of what you encounter is trying to influence you, even if sometimes benignly. Is it manipulation when I bake you a birthday cake to make you happy, and it succeeds? Yes.

It's equally crucial not to instantly dismiss any idea as "too outlandish." Even if it ultimately proves to be far-fetched, do the work to confirm that. If there's one genuine lesson I've gleaned from all this, it's that I've never truly been in contact with the larger mechanisms at play. It's almost as if we're confined to a "citizen zone," while those who turn the cogs of history exist in a completely separate realm. I speak metaphorically, of course, but even literal comparisons can be drawn. You don't need to believe in conspiracy theories to recognize this divide.

Nothing is too implausible to be true. Declassified documents from the 20th century prove this, not to mention historical records from the past 2000 years and the ongoing archaeological debates. We seem so disoriented that we're not only unaware of our place in history but fail to realize we're still living in the post-World Wars era. If you're unaware, the world nearly ended then.

Know yourself. Know your God. And be wary of the ideas entering your home.

The Real Ancient Aliens

I’m going Stamets mode

When we gaze at the stars, searching for signs of extraterrestrial life, we might be overlooking the most extraordinary alien presence right beneath our feet. Fungi, those mysterious organisms that are neither plant nor animal, could be the ancient aliens that have shaped our world and guided human development for millions of years.

Long before humans walked the Earth, fungi were already here, possibly touching down on our planet's surface as far back as 500 million years ago. Like interstellar terraformers, these alien lifeforms began the monumental task of transforming barren rock into life-supporting soil, creating the very ground we stand on today. This wasn't just a random act of nature, but perhaps a carefully orchestrated plan to prepare Earth for future inhabitants.

As plants emerged, fungi formed intricate alliances with them through structures called mycorrhizae. This symbiotic relationship allowed plants to thrive on land, but it's more complex than it appears. Sometimes, plants exploit their fungal partners, suggesting a deeper, more contentious influence that these alien fungi exert on terrestrial life.

Perhaps the most astounding evidence of fungi's otherworldly nature is the Common Mycorrhizal Network (CMN). This vast underground web connects different plants through fungal threads, functioning as a biological internet. Could this be an alien communication system, allowing fungi to coordinate their influence across the planet?

The fungal influence extends far beyond natural ecosystems, reaching into the very foundations of human civilization. Our agricultural revolution, which gave rise to modern society, may have been orchestrated by these silent alien overseers. Staple crops like wheat and corn rely heavily on fungal relationships. Are our eating habits unknowingly serving the needs of an alien species?

Some researchers even suggest that fungi have shaped human consciousness and spirituality. The idea of a "Common Mycorrhizal Network of consciousness" hints at a profound alien influence on our mental and spiritual realms. From ancient religious experiences to modern spiritual practices, could fungi be guiding our cognitive evolution?

Fungi's unique form of intelligence, characterized by a "bottom-up" approach, stands in stark contrast to human thinking. Even simple organisms like slime molds can solve complex problems, displaying an alien intellect that challenges our understanding of cognition. More alarmingly, some fungi can control insects, turning them into "zombies." Could our gut bacteria, many with fungal origins, be subtly steering human behavior under alien direction?

This summary of my notes on fungi was written by Claude.

I used to make music

And design merch

Packaging design of four of my solo albums.

93ultra (2017)

SPEED DEMON (2018)

Art Is A Sin (2021)

I Am The Ship (2023)

Many more albums not pictured.

As Above, So Below

Did we forget?

The following is a metaphor that I wrote in 2022:

Long ago, humanity found itself in low valleys, surrounded by mountainous terrain. Ancient stories spoke of a time when our ancestors cultivated the earth, producing bountiful harvests. Other tales recounted great civilizations like Atlantis, while some narrated a massive flood that cleansed the world. These narratives shared a common theme: water.

As our forebears rested in these valleys, the wisest among them began to ponder this connection. Gazing at the stars, they could discern faint signs of water bodies atop the surrounding hills. Eventually, they concluded that survival necessitated ascending the mountain to access the mythical technology of flowing water.

The logical course of action was to mobilize the tribe for the arduous climb back to a state of grace, within the perceived view of the divine. This journey, while perilous, was deemed necessary for a community mired in the shadows of towering cliffs.

During this multi-year expedition, they encountered a cave. Within this cavern, a series of fissures penetrated the earth above, allowing for a slight trickle of the sought-after resource. Rather than continuing to the summit with its promise of lakes, fauna, flora, and precipitation, they paused for a respite and a taste of impending victory.

As often occurs when momentum wanes, a brief rest extended into a prolonged stay. The approaching winter may have rendered the cave with its meager water supply a temporary salvation. Thus, they remained.

As time passed, the wise elders who had initiated the journey perished, leaving only younger individuals aware of their circumstances. Some attempted to persuade the group to resume their trek, while others ventured forth alone, promising to return upon reaching the peak. Some perished en route, others succeeded but failed to return for their brethren.

Eventually, a day arrived when the tribe collectively forgot the world beyond the cave and their original purpose. Many were born into a system centered on survival and waiting—waiting for a signal to resume their journey to the summit. However, with the original leaders long gone, the reason for this waiting was lost. Waiting became ingrained in their very essence, without understanding its purpose.

This cave metaphorically represents our current state—mentally, physically, and spiritually. There exists an inner "secret" that we all sense but continually skirt. It's plausible that some reached the peak and witnessed the abundance of flowing waters and lush landscapes. Logically, these individuals would have control over what reaches those in the cave. This control need not be malevolent; it could be the long-awaited "message from home." However, by the time it arrives, those in the cave may no longer comprehend its language.

Thus, the communication becomes inadvertently harmful. Attempts to garner attention, such as introducing rocks into the water supply, are misinterpreted. The cave dwellers develop new systems and technologies to filter out these impurities, never questioning the underlying cause of their situation. They master their surroundings, manufacturing complexity from available novelty. Pride in these accomplishments further entrenches them in the cave.

This cycle persists to the present day, where the cave has been transformed into a full-scale city, equipped with all perceived necessities for generational survival.

The question remains: Is survival truly easier here than at the mountain's summit?

Making beats with a cool guy

Youth outreach

Pictured is a sample flier for a beginner-level course I was asked to design, but never got to teach. The client was a new piano school in my area that was flirting with the idea of adding music production to their lesson options. They approved the course, but never followed through with implementation.

I opened the door

And there was a window

I don’t regret spending ten years on music and audio. The only thing I regret is not having a side project. There is a unique-to-our-lives window that is open right now. Thanks to AI tools, people like me (and you?) can skip most of the busy work involved in the process of learning new things.

Before I went to school for music and audio, I had been teaching myself from the ground up. The time it takes to make one song is the time it takes to:

Learn basic music theory

Learn basic piano

Learn to sing

Learn to write

Learn to use Logic Pro

Learn to mix

Learn to master

Etc.

I learned this all by making albums. It took years. I loved it.

This is still a valuable way to approach everything and anything. Take it all in. Have the audacity to learn something. Commit fully.

And add ChatGPT. I can’t even begin to express the time I would have saved being able to ask specific, nuanced questions and get straight answers. Maybe my growth would have been much faster.

I’ve learned more about the nature of JavaScript programming through my use of chatbots than I did through a lot of learn-coding programs (paid and free). I’m still a beginner in the truest sense, but not being capped by my current knowledge is changing everything.

I no longer worry about the logistics of learning all of the parts involved with even being able to decide if a project is feasible. For the longest time, I wanted to practice, but I just truly didn’t know what that meant. Now I can just solve my own problems. Or make a cool thing. Or something that excites people. Or something just for fun. Just like making music.

Having context creates the storage space in my mind that can be genuinely connected to a larger knowledge network of JavaScript.

Otherwise, it is all just nonsense and memorization.

I think we all have more responsibility coming within our lifetimes, not less. Sitting back will be for our kids, or theirs.

Why? Because look at how much more powerful we’re becoming.

Can you say… GOAT?

Cracked Hall of Fame

Back to buttons

Help! It’s so dark! I can’t see a thing…

I am back at work on my dark mode/light mode switch that I described in my last post. I got a bit lost in the creation of this so I stepped back to work through the processes required to achieve my very powerful Theme Swapper. I adjusted my approach as well, now trying very hard to make Google Apps Script work for me.

Here is a breakdown of how this project is supposed to work:

Description

This project aims to create a Google Docs integration that allows users to dynamically switch between light and dark themes for embedded Google Docs via a toggle button on a website. It involves a Google Apps Script web app that receives theme change requests from the website and applies the corresponding styles to the Google Doc, ensuring consistent theming across both the website and the embedded document.

1. Website Integration:

• Toggle theme button on the website toggles CSS classes and sends a request to the Google Apps Script to update the Google Doc theme.
• The embedded Google Doc is modified to reflect the theme change.

2. Google Apps Script:

• Script receives theme change requests and applies the corresponding styles to the Google Doc.
• Script provides a sidebar interface for manual theme changes within Google Docs.Running into an issue with OAuth because my site is hosted on my Github Pages property. Going to try a work-around today.

Turn on the lights!

Building on buildings

Beware tunnel vision. Spent all day trying to create and implement a dark mode/light mode toggle to this site. If you don’t know, this is a Yacine/Kache site clone (google it), meaning that it is a basic skeleton site (title down to “recent posts section”) that hosts a Google Doc. It uses JavaScript to convert the contents of the doc into static html elements on the page.The biggest problem was figuring out how to actually alter the gdoc elements. Seems simple enough, but obviously not.

I was successful in making the button work and, more importantly, swap colors schemes on the whole page INCLUDING the elements of the gdoc. But I broke the entire page in the process. Whoooops! I also need to think about how to define/recreate every possible styling in gdoc. I would really like to keep using

May have to make my own docs clone.I saved the code but reverted for the time being. Going to work on it tomorrow.

You are a conduit

When you ask with grace, you always get a response.

Notes dump.

Be grateful that the door is still there. Broken from use, you know it well. How lucky you are. You see again that when you approach the unapproachable, there are others to help.

Control your unconscious anger or the cycle continues. Give yourself to family and maintain faith that it will be right. Avoid pursuit of “your life,” there is only our life. Children can sense your energy as you could and still can. Don’t torture yourself, you’ll get tortured enough. How can you seek or hide from the creator's attention if you have stains on your soul?

Practicing basics

New very original web app in progress

try it out here

Absolute GOAT btw

Cracked Hall of Fame

Python Feeder Detection Troll Bot OTW

I am the king of novelty Discord bots (it’s a great way to learn a language)

!register <RiotAccount> <Tagline>

If a registered user starts a League of Legends or Valorant game with 0 kills and…

3 deaths: “@everyone: @username is feeding!”

5 deaths: “@everyone: @username is inting!”

also:

Pentakill & Ace messages

4/0 start: “@username is fed!” messages

Etc.

The Riot API is very easy to work with (not surprisingly). Yahoo! Makes it seem like they don’t actually want you to build anything with their Sports API (delaying Assistant Coach fantasy football bot).

My sole motivation in the portfolio phase of my coding career is to annoy and bother my friends - or make them laugh. Either/or! This bot is way harder to test because loading in and out of games - and getting kills or killed - takes too long. I’m going to look into ways to trick the bot this week for (reliable) testing.

Python is scary because even if you only know JS, you can install a virtual environment with ease, and then if VS Code has a bug (it does right now), you’ll panic and not know how to deactivate it.

Next Discord bot in C? LOL.

Isn’t he (my GPT Discord.js bot) lovely?

Less than one minute old!

You wouldn’t mock a proud father for his newborn’s lack of intelligence (or his lack of fathering experience)... would you?

My display name is smokeweed here, but it’s simply horseplay. My friends allow me to test my bots on their server, the least I can do is entertain.

My first-born is merely moments old, crafted from the cosmic dust of another (gpt 2). I will nurture him so he grows strong and one day he will return the favor.

This is a test build for the  server my friends use while gaming.

(Thirty Seconds Until) Bindus Prawn (hence, bindusBot)

Like God inside my house.

What if AI isn’t on either end of the doom spectrum, and is just a tool from God like any other mundane human thought is. Meant to fill the void between us that the collapse of common trust left.

And all that was left was his love.

Never drown!

Saw these ducks

Made this vid.

GOAT

Cracked Hall of Fame

The squirrels are my allies

Squirrels deserve respect as much as any human does! They are my brothers and I wish to gain their trust.

How can I convince them I am a friend?

I’m like face to face by daft punk

Everyone is always saying “just focus on the melody!” “One sample is enough if you really refine it!”

Sorry i need to find a song that has the perfect tonal and rhythmic qualities to match the other 69 incoherent samples i’ve collected

This is how i win

trying things.

give me a year.

The only joke i ever wrote

One early-summer evening a family gathers in their kitchen. Janet lovingly labored at the stove all day, using a new recipe to prepare meat and potatoes for their dinner.

She puts a plate in front of her husband, Blake, who usually works late nights, but happens to be home early for Janet’s new experiment. How lucky!

All day long Janet fantasized as she worked about how happy her family would be with her when they saw how much care she put into the night’s dinner.

Their son, enters and sits at the table as his mother places a warm plate in front of him before returning to finish making her own plate. Peter, the small town’s star quarterback, just returned from practice and is starved. He looks down to assess his dinner. Meat, potatoes, vegetables, bread. Delicious.

Peter can’t wait and digs in, but immediately Blake notices the look on his son’s face change.

“This is so dry” mumbles Peter, but before he can even finish his sentence, his father cuts in,

“Shhh your mother worked all day on this.” Blake then takes a bite of his own and begins to understand his son’s dilemma.

“Janet, this is amazing! Is this a new recipe? I just love you so much yanno always progressing and keeping things fresh” Janet smiles as she places dirty cookware into the sink for later.

‘Oh, but dear?” asks Blake across the kitchen. “Yes, darling?” replies his tired wife Janet.

“Would you mind bringing some condiments over when you sit? I doubt we’ll need them, but just in case! Butter, salt, maybe A1…” he trails off.

“What?” says Janet

“Could you bring some condiments over” repeats Blake

“What?” yells Janet

The sound of the running water drowns out the sounds of her husbands shy requests

“Bring salt and A1 sauce when you come to sit down!”

“For what!?”

“For dinner!”

“For WHAT!? I can’t hear you!” shouts Janet

“Oh, for PETE’S STEAK!!”

Making is making and making is fun

I can literally do anything and thats why i cant do anything so instead i’ll do everything

You: Software :)

Me: Soft where?

sound

Audacity > Talent

There isn’t time to pursue talent!! Nothing is hard, everything is a transaction and time is the only currency! grow up!

YOU:

        >”nooooo you can’t just swim across domains taking only as much or as little as you need to progress on your journey that has nothing to do with any domain except for Heaven!!!”

ME:

Blogging?

Posting and blogging and making and vibing

5-14-24

Stealing code is like sampling and committing to github is like exporting the master channel and functions are like snares and you can google “murda beatz snare kit 2020 reddit” but for javascript and get the same results

HTML➡️MIDI

CSS➡️MIX

JS➡️AUTOMATION

Who is murda beatz and who are the swedish guys making the melodies?

Everything is the same everywhere if you're awake.

Imagine what smarter goals do!

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